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第77章（第1页）

“FITZWILLIAMDARCY”

IfElizabeth，whenMr.Darcygavehertheletter，didnotexpectittocontainarenewalofhisoffers，shehadformednoexpectationatallofitscontents.Butsuchastheywere，itmaywellbesupposedhoweagerlyshewentthroughthem，andwhatacontrarietyofemotiontheyexcited.Herfeelingsasshereadwerescarcelytobedefined.Withamazementdidshefirstunderstandthathebelievedanyapologytobeinhispower;andsteadfastlywasshepersuaded，thathecouldhavenoexplanationtogive，whichajustsenseofshamewouldnotconceal.Withastrongprejudiceagainsteverythinghemightsay，shebeganhisaccountofwhathadhappenedatNetherfield.Shereadwithaneagernesswhichhardlyleftherpowerofcomprehension，andfromimpatienceofknowingwhatthenextsentencemightbring，wasincapableofattendingtothesenseoftheonebeforehereyes.Hisbeliefofhersister’sinsensibilitysheinstantlyresolvedtobefalse;andhisaccountofthereal，theworstobjectionstothematch，madehertooangrytohaveanywishofdoinghimjustice.Heexpressednoregretforwhathehaddonewhichsatisfiedher;hisstylewasnotpenitent，buthaughty.Itwasallprideandinsolence.

ButwhenthissubjectwassucceededbyhisaccountofMr.Wickham—whenshereadwithsomewhatclearerattentionarelationofeventswhich，iftrue，mustoverthroweverycherishedopinionofhisworth，andwhichboresoalarminganaffinitytohisownhistoryofhimself—herfeelingswereyetmoreacutelypainfulandmoredifficultofdefinition.Astonishment，apprehension，andevenhorror，oppressedher.Shewishedtodiscredititentirely，repeatedlyexclaiming，“Thismustbefalse!Thiscannotbe!Thismustbethegrossestfalsehood!”—andwhenshehadgonethroughthewholeletter，thoughscarcelyknowinganythingofthelastpageortwo，putithastilyaway，protestingthatshewouldnotregardit，thatshewouldneverlookinitagain.

Inthisperturbedstateofmind，withthoughtsthatcouldrestonnothing，shewalkedon;butitwouldnotdo;inhalfaminutetheletterwasunfoldedagain，andcollectingherselfaswellasshecould，sheagainbeganthemortifyingperusalofallthatrelatedtoWickham，andcommandedherselfsofarastoexaminethemeaningofeverysentence.TheaccountofhisconnectionwiththePemberleyfamilywasexactlywhathehadrelatedhimself;andthekindnessofthelateMr.Darcy，thoughshehadnotbeforeknownitsextent，agreedequallywellwithhisownwords.Sofareachrecitalconfirmedtheother;butwhenshecametothewill，thedifferencewasgreat.WhatWickhamhadsaidofthelivingwasfreshinhermemory，andassherecalledhisverywords，itwasimpossiblenottofeelthattherewasgrossduplicityononesideortheother;and，forafewmoments，sheflatteredherselfthatherwishesdidnoterr.Butwhenshereadandre-readwiththeclosestattention，theparticularsimmediatelyfollowingofWickhamsresigningallpretensionstotheliving，ofhisreceivinginlieusoconsiderableasumasthreethousandpounds，againwassheforcedtohesitate.Sheputdowntheletter，weighedeverycircumstancewithwhatshemeanttobeimpartiality—deliberatedontheprobabilityofeachstatement—butwithlittlesuccess.Onbothsidesitwasonlyassertion.Againshereadon;buteverylineprovedmoreclearlythattheaffair，whichshehadbelieveditimpossiblethatanycontrivancecouldsorepresentastorenderMr.Darcysconductinitlessthaninfamous，wascapableofaturnwhichmustmakehimentirelyblamelessthroughoutthewhole.

TheextravaganceandgeneralprofligacywhichhescruplednottolayatMr.Wickhamscharge，exceedinglyshockedher;themoreso，asshecouldbringnoproofofitsinjustice.Shehadneverheardofhimbeforehisentranceintothe—shireMilitia，inwhichhehadengagedatthepersuasionoftheyoungmanwho，onmeetinghimaccidentallyintown，hadthererenewedaslightacquaintance.OfhisformerwayoflifenothinghadbeenknowninHertfordshirebutwhathetoldhimself.Astohisrealcharacter，hadinformationbeeninherpower，shehadneverfeltawishofinquiring.Hiscountenance，voice，andmannerhadestablishedhimatonceinthepossessionofeveryvirtue.Shetriedtorecollectsomeinstanceofgoodness，somedistinguishedtraitofintegrityorbenevolence，thatmightrescuehimfromtheattacksofMr.Darcy;oratleast，bythepredominanceofvirtue，atoneforthosecasualerrorsunderwhichshewouldendeavourtoclasswhatMr.Darcyhaddescribedastheidlenessandviceofmanyyearscontinuance.Butnosuchrecollectionbefriendedher.Shecouldseehiminstantlybeforeher，ineverycharmofairandaddress;butshecouldremembernomoresubstantialgoodthanthegeneralapprobationoftheneighbourhood，andtheregardwhichhissocialpowershadgainedhiminthemess.Afterpausingonthispointaconsiderablewhile，sheoncemorecontinuedtoread.But，alas!thestorywhichfollowed，ofhisdesignsonMissDarcy，receivedsomeconfirmationfromwhathadpassedbetweenColonelFitzwilliamandherselfonlythemorningbefore;andatlastshewasreferredforthetruthofeveryparticulartoColonelFitzwilliamhimself—fromwhomshehadpreviouslyreceivedtheinformationofhisnearconcerninallhiscousinsaffairs，andwhosecharactershehadnoreasontoquestion.Atonetimeshehadalmostresolvedonapplyingtohim，buttheideawascheckedbytheawkwardnessoftheapplication，andatlengthwhollybanishedbytheconvictionthatMr.Darcywouldneverhavehazardedsuchaproposal，ifhehadnotbeenwellassuredofhiscousinscorroboration.

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